Friday, February 5, 2010

4 months??

I still miss Phil so much it hurts.  Alot of the time actually, though I don't know if people realise.  It's been 4 months, 1 week, and about 17 hours since Phil died, and sometimes I'm still not sure if I believe it.  It seems so unreal that someone who was so real and alive and loved life and people and God, and who I dearly love and spent nearly 18 years with, is just gone.  Not just as simple as here one day then gone the next.  Here one day and gone every single minute of every single day after that. 


  1. Its a spot in your heart that will always ache... a love in your heart that you will always love .... because you love Phillip and always will....that love never needs to fade cos its truly special.... give thanks to God for the time you shared and for the day you will be together again... praying for you xxx kaylene gardner

  2. Hey Melinda

    Thanks for posting...

    I don't really know what to say, but remember "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted" and be glad that we do not mourn like those who have no hope, and that Jesus mourned too, and that being comforted does not mean forgetting!

    love to you all


  3. Yes, I think at first it is surreal (for quite a long time) and then you realise how finite it is and then you want it to be surreal again.